in session.

our time in vegas didn't end up looking like anything that we had planned. god really has a funny way of doing that to any and all plans that i am involved in! it is hard to describe what we did during that week, because it was so abstract in a way - but i will try my best.

we did spend alot of hours cleaning up the old rehab centre, which turned out to be a long and silent job, as we were all so spread out through this huge centre... we also got to work in a warehouse with a church that collects all the factory seconds from wal-mart and distributes it to the underprivelaged. so we didn't do any ministry where we actually got to 'evangelise' or speak to people... it was all behind-the-scenes labours.

my initial reaction is to be disappointed that we didn't go out to the strip to talk to people, or work with the foster kids ministry that the YWAM has there - but god had alot more personal issues that he wanted each of us to deal with on our team. our whole team spent ALOT of time in personal prayer and queit time with god. there were alot of issues that came up with different people regarding their pasts, or anxieties for the lives that they had to go back to as soon as our outreach was over. we had alot of team time which was spent in confession and prayer and teaching from our leaders. we also spent one on one time with each person in the team to make sure that we had brought every relationship that we had before the lord and didn't walk away with any regrets.

it ended up being a time of intense character building and reflection. i learnt alot about who i am, and the way that i affect the people around me. god showed me the areas of my character that walk a fine line between being good and being destructive. i felt like i was in a phsyc session with god, where i had to do alot of self analysis (which, everyone who knows me well, knows that i HATE!).

anyway. outreach is now over. and i am back in denver - trying desperately to wrap my brain around what i have learnt and done in the last 5 months. i am dreading saying goodbye to my family, because that is what these people, this team has become.